Saturday, July 20
arrs,
okies....should go offline liaox..
hais. wadeva. this sucks man
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reminisiced at 23:02
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how da one ever ever not feel tired.
hmms. may seem energetic at times ...but
somehow just so mentally drained when i get
home. even if its rests home..
missed the gw8 life i had.
wonder what the future holds for me...
hmms...
been reading ppl's journal...
hopping from links to links.
not that i really know who they are
but guess that's how i spent my wastefulness
sunday morn. i meant noon. woke up so late
lors. hais. other than the time to wake up + pee.
bleahs. anyway.
i thought this was nice...
the author just simply put it so nicer + clearly in words...
***it's kind of sad to see friends you were once close to just seem to
drift away from you.. so far that u both haf nothing to sae to each other
anymore. silence fills in, n u wish u could turn back time to the good old
days. maybe i took those friendships fer granted, or i didnt show enough
care. when u had those days just spending time together, u dun often
feel that happiness and sweetness in ur heart. it's always when u reminisce
the past, when ur heart is aching wif nostalgia, den u'll truly feel that those
days are actually the best part of ur life. no matter how these friendships
have tarnished wif time, i keep them close to my heart.***
+ + + + + reminisiced at 22:35
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hmms. people are really different. can observe their
various yan xing ju ci by just some simple CIP activity...
we went places like bishan, tp, citihall + raffles city.
with huishan + alvina.
that aL arrs...kept bugging to go RI
but somehow we din.just missed the training dismissal time
of theirs *poor aL*
... toa payoh ctrl's really a good place for selling flags.
especially the air-conditioned interchange there.
it isn't really a building, so duhz we can get in there right?
*so sad...cun exactly count how much i collected lors...if not,
it would really let me be grinning from ear to ear!* but ...can
vaguely remember...
got a $10 note [from this only nice woman in the CBD area]
--- really thanx loads mam! been tellin' ya gd deed to ppl!
got some $2 notes... [from this uncle whose daughter's in sn]
[some mother...]
*ehs.(thats the vague idea)
oh yah... and some parents are good lors. they educate their children + have
them to put in the coins into the bags. people really do different things with the
change they have. some just simply find the smallest change (10cents) and jus
stuff it in whilst waiting for the sticker so that they would be free of flag-sellers
whilst some jus clear their entire ceilings + slowly slot them into the puny slot
available in the bag. hmms. ywca damn mean lors. really make it seem
as though as we would steal the money. haix. sniffs. hmmx. think we wasted
lots of money on transport. toured the red line of the mrt... *hees* wuz scolded
by some iderts lorx.*roll eyes*...some didn't even had the authority to do so...^
that kay-poh old man who was jus some ignorant oncomer who didn't even
donate any $$^. but. there was this guy that was damn nice lorx. he allowed us
into this resources building and told us that we could get our %lobangs% in there
+ we did! hmmx. saw some irritating catholic high people on the way...aL kena
XXXX by them...haix. suckers man! bleahs. hmmx. and the sushi@raffles
city damn nice. too bad sogo closed down...
hmms. maybe should do flag-selling and go out at the same time.
wonder how's my ikea blocks coming. arrs. think i better go offline liaos.
goodnites to all. take cares.
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erms.
duno. supposed to be studying. but apparently keep popping online.
arrs. my maths really sucks ... so does my cl + geog...but just
couldn't seem to concentrate + get on. arrs. my house's in a mess
now...bleahs...dunno when will it be quiet. i miss serenity.
+ + + + + reminisiced at 07:56
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+ ooh... i simply love my new adidas watch. hahas. my mum's
suddenly so nice and bought me a watch!!! **yays** hope i'll
remember to put my watch on.... the last time i put on was
qihang + before that was like way back in p6?! +
and thanx ming-gay...for ur advice and bleahs....~
bleahs. hope this in-built sauna will be turned off soon *wiNkzZ*
+ + + + + reminisiced at 03:35
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hmms.
bend it like beckham rocks.
still as corny as ever... after watching it agains.
gosh. realised i spend lots of time sleeping in front of my comp...
oh yah. that ikea trip last night. *yay* bought my stuffs liaos.
but den...haven the faintest idea what to do with them ehs. and
hais. but on a second thought... i think the people at ikea were
rather nice + customer-friendly. *well except for some minorities*
hmms. yah. they should be given an award mans.
hees.
i wan go back there again ehs. hees. its quite fun spending money.
but so hard earning/getting $$..
but ... hmms. hope i can get to find a part time job soon.
hope that crepes+cream ppl weren't lying to me...
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was damn pissed at my sis.
kaoz. like she's been using the comp since i left home like 4 hours ago?
not that she has been doing work. but jus simply playing?! she sucks.
big time. whoever has such a sucky sister like mine?1
hmms. did cip today with huishan + alvina
was tiring but quite fun. went places. tp, bishan, cityhall...
void decks, mrt stations, mrts.... bleahs.
perharps should do flag selling whilst going out.
can flag-sell + shop at the same time.
hmms. there was this lady around the CBD area who
was so damn nice lors. she took the trouble to dig out her wallet
and donated $10.... then she even thanked me + my friends
for spending our Saturday morning selling flags....
hmms. very tired now. bleahs. but supposed to start studying....
been like using qihang as an excuse to slack. but realised i
really want to do well lors. or else really 'dui bu qi' parents.
bought a blue adidas watch. hope it will last me for long...
guess i better go back into watch-wearing habit + hope that
watch tan-marks wouldn't appear. bleahs. really crapping
alot nowadays.... hees. shall sign in later. cun think of anything
else to write liaos.
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Friday, July 19
suck.
dead beat.
need i say more?!
reached home around 10.50+. was damn freaked out my mum's
expressions. hope she doesn't come out of her room soon or i'll be dead meat.
maybe it wasn't that bad today.
went ikea with evelyn
after going to j8 with mingjie.
the day at school sucked. cun believe...cried***again
got back my chinese paper. knew it. i studied so hard for it lors. and i only got 51
lyk everyone else around me got 70+ and complaining about how they could have done
better?! zhang laoshi mentioned someone about getting her zhong he tian kong all
wrong; and everyone else was commenting how XXXX that person was. and guess what. that was
me.school was just so horrid. suddenly i just caught flu [according to my mum, that is some
symptom of my immune system down; maybe i can miss some lessons soon...haven been absent
for the year YET]. kept wheezing through lessons and asking for tissue paper. dunnoe whether have
irritated ying2 but heys. * i am sorry *. really hope you wouldn't catch my cold.
then the indian sari competition thing during assembly. dunno what happened lors. the film couldn't load
and i just exposed huishan's film. just like that. i really din't mean it. tell me how to make up for
it. please. duno what happened to jialin also. just suddenly daoed me after assembly. den was
so so damn mean to me lors. and like....^really dunno how to put in down in words^. sometimes i
really wonder. am i some alien or something? sometimes i see the whole bunch of cldds ppl, i have nothing
to say except hi/bye/helos. or jus play some casual prank. lyk really scared of being friendly cause my
mind is forever blank and can't think of anything to say. unlike jiamin + xuemei. arrs. not
that i don't have things to talk about. but just afraid it comes out the wrong way or whatever words that juts out
from my mouth ain't exactly what i meant to say/comment? totally losing my sense of humour. i jus can't laugh
or crack jokes anymore. maybe i wasn't corny or humourous in the 1st place. yah. maybe ehs. hmms. bought
some stuffs from ikea for xubie. maybe after going out with evelyn and being tired and worn out makes me feel
so much better than just now. really felt like crying out loud so much lors. but thank god only
they saw. really deadbeat now. but don't even think i can fall asleep on bed lors. just like yesterday.
tried to sleep but couldn't. arrs. they say optimisim makes one's life happier. hmms. ain't i supposed to be
an optimist? but how come my happy days dun last long. yah. all those days of laughter and happiness
that you may see on me might just be masks. people wear masks, don't they? but i do hope people
around me and i myself don't wear those that two-heads.
kept thinking about nom. very scared history will repeat itself. but does it really matter? maybe
it does. arrs. but jus as what i told evelyn + jialin, what's the point of thinking about it?! ... hais. dunno.
hope nature will take its own course with its best of fufilling everyone's dreams. hmms. tml got cip at
ywca. was supposed to call them up. i did. but it was 10+ already. tml...cun imagine us a whole bunch
of people searching through maps and everything. but heys we are geog students right?
hmms. hope tml will be a fun day. that 7.30am - 12pm time slot. will be with my classmates. those
people that i have never ever went home or like really interact with be it after school or during school
hours... hmms. 3 hope. really dunno what i tink about u.
ok. mum's out. sheesh. nites. when shld i show her the chinese paper. what will she say. sheesh.
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Thursday, July 18
yesterday was...
so horrid. got to know that my computer crashed can?
then was trying to study chinese in school + came home
feeling so terribly drowsy + sub-conscious. arrs. yah.
but i've got to say something.
mum. thanx! +ilu+
if not for her, wouldn't even be able to use the comp
for anything. ***phew. the computer is now back in working order!!!
+ + + + + reminisiced at 07:50
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yah. seoul garden outing went out fine.
at least thats what i think.
hehes. that toopid moy2
keep saying that i wanted to eat the cake lors!
but then it really looks very nice wads.
bet xinhui is enjoying it loads.
and...haix.the only thing that i really wanted to eat
was salad! but didn't get to though...
^aRrx. shall make one someday.
but still dun understand why ammz din
wanna go.
felt so left out after coming back from j8 with meiyan
ehs. i think i really outdated with songs + etc. not exactly the best person to
talked to; i mean a brain dead person?! then felt so outcasted. didn't know
what to comment about and was probably just understood only 5 minutes
later? really dunno songs well and lack of humourr...
yah. had chinese test today.really wonder what the results would turn out.zhang bu2
sure finish marking by today wans. then really scared will see mark wan lors.
haix. alreadi flunked term 2 chinese average; don't want to fail this term's one again.
supposed to have a lower L1R5 also. but possible?!
haix. dunnoe. feeling insecure + uncertain again of the friendship thingy i have with my
classmates. lyk how do i put in? *** i don't believe that any tests would be more important than listening to your
friend and making her feel better. i mean lyk whats the point of just smiling?! do u think that that
will make people feel alot better?! yikes.
had pm'meeting today. haix. seems lyk it will be meetings
for all thursday.
and its the day with lots of tests after recess cans?
haix. wanted to help in that lunchbox thing
but my class mon sounded so so unenthu...haix.
obviously wun be so spas to volunteer?! what if i am
not up to it? dunno. just realised our monitorial side
of the board very dead. the prefectorial is so much
eh...bonded?! yah. if that goes on, pmb is gonna be
such a bore.... *yawns* hope things turn out for the
better and will get to have fun in the near future....
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Tuesday, July 16
for thursday 18thjuly
check with ivy! she's got this whole idea !
and to all whose going for the post-qihang lunch.
bian sheng tuan + ALL yan yuans
budden mus confirm the no. of ppl going k.
this thurs 18th july.
its around $16.98 each
without drink is $14.50. just confirmed with the j8 branch.
maybe we can all bargain somehow...we are such a big group
and seats are reserved. so dun fret. let's have that day
we'll meet in the canteen, possibly at 2.15
and take mrt to j8!!!
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today. was relatively a boring day.
kept yawning in class. falling asleep during history
***mrs lily tan, i didn't mean it! HoNest!
den got letta from my mummy
*realised i really missed her.
we used to be very close.
always having marathon letter-writing
competing the no. of postcards we could write.
[with nos. ranging from 17 to 27]
those were the days.
and *hais* ammz not going for the seoul garden thing.
so sad lors.
but nvm... we decided to make an ultimate goal to get her to go!
came home real early today.
tried to update my blog will talking to doris + steffi
but....arrx. i just fell asleep at the comp.
so to doris + steffi
my goodness. and i slept till 7pm.
such a pig lors.
and jus bathed and typed in the previous entry + this.
wish me lucks for studying thurs' 2 tests ltr.
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if i could catch a rainbow,
i would do it just for you.
and share with you its beauty,
on the days u are feeling blue.
.
you could call your very own,
a place to find serenitym
a place to be alone.
if i could take ur troubles
i would toss them in to the sea
but all these things i'm finding,
are impossible for me.
but let me be what i know best.
a friend thats always there! *ilu*
jess thanx for this sms. hope u dun mind me using this for blog!
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Monday, July 15
left macs ard 7 plus when we went there around 4.30 but left so late.
had a nice heart-to-heart talk with xuemei and evelyn
like really rare lors.
jus viewed part of the qihang video.
realised how badly i acted.
now having mixed feelings.
thought of using this for part of some prezzie.
but it isn't that good.
not the technical part.
but i tink it was my acting.
and that i must say, all of us weren't as good as the night's show.
so whoever filmed the night show.
can u pls tell me?!
i really need the video. *urgent*
and to all whose going for the post-qihang lunch.
this thurs 18th july.
its around $16.98 each
without drink is $14.50. just confirmed with the j8 branch.
and seats are reserved. so dun fret. let's have fun that day!
and yesh. everyone please take good care of yourselves!
*ilu*
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monday. 14th july.
as usual i was late for school.
well not exactly late. i reached on the dot,
even had time to put my bag down!!!
even took attendance.
there were people who were absent. but cun remember who.
but i noe there was this person who didn't come that made my day.
***
had assembly in the track + field
saw her.
dun think i like her liaos.
but anyway she was doing prefect duty.
a monitor doing? mus be late lyk me....
on the dot NOT late. as usual.
assembly supposed to be about some post-promenade
but i was still thinking about qihang
*jus as xuemei said, qihang hangover *
received jessie's letta
in the midst of madness
from jialin
sat beside jialin in the middle of the performances.
decided to read jessie's letta.
and. jus into the first few lines.
" haiz. qihang's over. having splitting headache now man. suddenly at a loss for words.
did not really have much feelings yest. perharps only dissappointment + sadness.
to think my last qihang ended just like that..."
i cried. yah. and ...it wasn't even the first time i read.
anyway....cun believe its just over.just like that
ok. today was quite a relative cheerful yet sad day.
somehow. my class was so fun.
so enjoyable. they were mostly talking about qihang [those that came lars]
haha. we were so so mad.
talked during mrs hoo + mrs ong's lessons.
even ate sweets infront of mrs. hoo
she cun eat coz of her
***hees.
just realised that my people around me are really siaos.
and very to be with.
michelle yeo, huishan can be really mad.
ying ying too! haha. we ate. we laughed. we chatted.
-and in the midst of the lessons aft english-
***tokked about english_
how many students in secondary school can actually run around in school
when the lessons are on, den go enjoy air-con and come back later like 30 minutes
and not get scolded[ and amused 1 teacher?!} ?
... in comp lab.
typed my whole day's events out. at least till 4:29pm.
and to the two people sitting beside me ...
and that idert opposite us.
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Sunday, July 14
qihang
it caused us a period of 3 to 4 months.
the appointed directors wrote the script
auditions were held
actresses to potray the several roles were selected.
the rehearsals were carried on.
for weeks + months.
in classes, in lounges.
actresses were criticized for the better of improvements
bonds were soon created
soon, the combined rehearsals came in.
props were added into the set.
those were made, prim + proper.
makeup came in
foundation, eyeshadows, blusher, lipstick
all these were vital.
sound effects came in.
music played as the scenes carried on.
full dress rehearsals didn't turn out too well.
there were errors in the music.
actresses were too soft.
props were moved too slowly+noisily.
soon the day that everyone anticipated soon came.
the day where everyone slaved for.
after school when everyone else went home.
we stayed for it
in the nights when everyone slept soundly
we stayed up to make presents
it was so fast.
before you knew it,
it was the interval of the matinee.
we were gathered and soon went onstage.
<
was played well.
we sang the qihang song in one voice.
there was bonds between us.
we were united as one heart. one soul. one mind.
we had lunch.
relaxed and soon got into the mood for the next performance.
the second show ended off with a blast.
it was certainly great.
much better then the first matinee,
where trivial errors occured.
it was night of glamour.
a night of joy.
yet a night of tears.
it was a night of reunion
yet one of departness
it was a time for us to rejoice, for us to cry.
It was the day.night we had all anticipated.
It was a night not to be forgotten.
One of the very nights that left a really huge print in my heart.
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had qihang yesterday. guess it was really a huge sucess. well compared to the rehearsals.
really going to miss the sec4s
our last qihang with them.
HOW IT WENT ABOUT 13 th JULY 2002
the matinee was great, despite minor errors...
cun believe i was so nervous and actually cried before going on stage...
after the first performance, most of us were alll relaxed and played around before getting ready for the next show.
lunch.
we had a champagne [specially arranged for our dear dao yans].
haha.the cork had refused to budge till the very last moment till they shaked for like 10 minutes
had chicken rice. took some photos. lazed around. played around. talked received prezzies.
put on makeup again. haha. gossiped. time flew by so fast and it was time to get into the mood.
night.
intervalwas so soon. we made our way to backstage. got hugs from friends who came to watch.
my mum who came and wished me good luck + offered to take photos. so nice!
think i did better for the night show. could actually cry out on stage. heard sniffings from the audience.
had a really nice tingling sensation of acheivement + satisfaction.
we sang the qihang song.
was the last song to sing together in a performance for today.
wuz the last time the white batch would sing qihang zhi ke.
den we all sang
the hui ge
in one voice.
in unison.
[love huahui]!
we were so united
mrs cheong commented on our unity and the power of unity that we held on so strongly.
intially, we were afraid she was going to criticize. a lot.
but she praised us. and even suggested to us for a wondrous project.
to be the st secondary school to host drama competition for secondary chinese drama nationwide.
then the whole group of us, a mix of all the levels, of different groups went out to have dinner.
we got onto the 76 and it seemed so much like some hijack. the whole bus was filled with us.
even when it was time for us to get down, the bus was to be hauled.
the boarding passengers had to wait for us to alight. there were even friends who happen to stand near the exit, bidding farewell to us
that made me feel so much like so vip. hahas. toured half of ang mo kio central till we got to our venue. S11. Initially cun find any seats. {well for the 20 odd of us?] but later...perharps the aunties+uncles there decided to make space for us. the tables were soon decorated with flowers and gifts that we all held. eyes were fixed on us. probably of curiousity and maybe envy.
we had supper
there were fries, satays, coleslaw, steak,
salmon, soup, cup noodles, slurpees.
some of us even resorted to having our supper at the foot of the Jubilee buidling.
We were all flustered. Expressions of weariness.
Many soon hailed taxis and got home.
It was a night/day not to be forgotten.
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